Dead Doctors Don't Lie

 











 

I went to the graveside today, after my specialist appointment. It is so arid, so bleak, so crushing. I did my ritual, washed the stone, emptied the old water, filled the vase with new water. Put roses and hydrangeas in the vase, pink and white. The small ceramic freedom angel was still present. Deborah's cousin put it there. It's little hands placed together, as if releasing  a little dove from her hand. I complimented my surgeon and asked him if he was still in the business of making miracles. I believe him to be the best in the business, even in the world. I told my surgeon about her death. He says it is something that happens, and you don't see it coming. That is what is so frightening. I told him that Fraser Health is the worse place to go for treatment of mental illness. He told me he is aware of that. I left him with my blog information and the youtube video info,"Deborah Gordon Rest in Peace".

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2qtbqUHudeg


  
 I told him that soon we shall all be caught up in the air, and he responded, " whatever sustains you". This man truly, was sympathetic, but don't you just hate it when people tell you that? Jesus' return is a living hope, and even a crutch if you want to call it that. The hope that the dead shall rise, is way more than just words. It is life. It is what Ravi Zaccharia said, about making dead folks alive. I die daily, so I do not do my will, but that of my heavenly Father's.  In essence, I am dead to myself already. We have to be, in order to live, you see. I am emptied of myself. Sure, I would like to have an easier life, who wouldn't? Lately, I have been looking at people all around me. Most are aging to the point it challenges their movement, independence, sanity. Most are lonely, tired, frustrated. My mother is getting old and frail, and lives by herself across the globe, and she's only 20 years older than I.  Everyone is waiting for surgeries, or doctor's appointments. Did I tell you that most doctors on average die around age 55 and we get professional advice from them?? What is the matter with us? I simply long for a new body, a new mind, a transformed mind, with a new assignment. I am studying more and more what Dr. Joel Wallach teaches. If you would like to share another doctor's info who you think is helpful, please let me know. I can post it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-v2NymC4NYc