Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Anxiety Sucks-Panic Attack on Film

WATCH: Casey Throwaway records a part of his panic attack.
Casey Throwaway has anxiety.
It’s a real mental illness with a name that is used to describe a wide range of human emotions, but anxiety can be crippling to those who suffer persistent and severe symptoms.
The 27-year-old recorded himself at the tail end of a panic attack, which can manifest itself in physical reactions such as trembling and heart palpitations.

As tears stream down his face, he says to the camera, “I just wanted to make this video to show that it’s real.”
He admits his own attitude towards his anxiety disorder contributed to the stigma surrounding mental illness.

“I’ve always been the type of person who just says, ‘You gotta man up. You gotta force your way through it.’ But that’d be like telling a blind person to see,” he said in the video.

Throwaway said in the emotional video he stopped taking his medication although he knew he shouldn’t, and found out the hard way that sheer willpower was not enough to overcome the symptoms of his disorder.
READ MORE: Junior hockey player from Kelowna speaks out on youth mental health issues
According to the Centre for Addiction and Mental Health, anxiety is one of the most common mental illnesses. One in four adults experience an anxiety disorder sometime in their life.
There are various types of anxiety disorders which manifest themselves in different ways, but the suffering caused by the illness can be challenging to empathize with because the symptoms may be invisible.
In the video, Throwaway said he felt like his brain was on fire and that he was experiencing extreme emotions.
Since uploading the video two weeks ago, Throwaway has received praise for his courage in sharing footage of him at one of his lowest points.
READ MORE: Manitoba’s new PTSD legislation will save lives: firefighter
He has initiated a Kickstarter campaign to help fund his goal of creating a YouTube channel dedicated to being a resource for those with mental illness and to help break the stigma.
He has raised nearly double the amount of his original goal of $500.
“I posted the video in hopes of connecting with people who suffer with the stigmas of mental illness,” he wrote on his Kickstarter page. “This is something that I will pour my heart and soul into…I will dedicate myself to this.”

What's It Like Living With Mental Illness? Ask Wil Wheaton.

What's it like living with mental illness? Ask Wil Wheaton.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=K6ACzT6PCDw

Actor, writer, and producer Wil Wheaton recently recorded a video discussing what it's like living with mental illness.

You might know him from his work on "Star Trek: The Next Generation" or "The Big Bang Theory," or perhaps you're one of his nearly 3 million Twitter followers — or maybe you don't know him at all.
No matter the case, you probably know someone like him.

Wheaton's video was for Project UROK, a nonprofit aimed at breaking down the stigma of mental illness.

His is just the latest in a series of videos by the organization (which is pronounced "project you are okay").
Writer and actress Mara Wilson ("Matilda") also opened up about her experiences with anxiety, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and depression; blogger and media personality Perez Hilton recorded one about his struggle with anxiety and depression; and I even recorded one about my own bouts of depression and social anxiety.

Wheaton's experience is his alone, but there's some overlap with others who struggle with mental illness.

In the video, Wheaton mentions the fact that for years, he wasn't even aware that depression and anxiety were weighing him down — he just assumed that was simply how life was.

GIFs via Project UROK.

Later, he touches on the experience of finally seeking treatment and how that helped him regain stability in his life.

Trying to explain mental illness to someone who hasn't dealt with it is really, really hard.

There are so many misconceptions that go along with it. Depression is more than just feeling sad. Obsessive-compulsive disorder is more than just liking your apartment a certain way. Bipolar disorder is more than just having an up-and-down day.
Hearing the stories of others, with their similarities and differences, can help paint a picture of what it's actually like to live with mental illness. Most importantly, it can help those who do live with it to realize that they are not alone.

The purpose of Project UROK is to create a safe space for people with mental illness to share their stories and hear the stories of others.

"Project UROK is the resource I wish I'd had as a teenager when I was feeling isolated due to my severe anxiety, OCD, and depression," Project UROK founder Jenny Jaffe told me in an email. "We're creating a platform where all kinds of people can tell all kinds of stories related to mental illness in a way that's friendly, fun, inclusive, and non-judgmental. My ultimate goal is a world where we think of mental healthcare not as a luxury, but as a basic human right. We can only do so if we stop being afraid to talk about what mental illness really is and what it actually looks like."

The choice to use the term "mental illness" instead of just "mental health" is deliberate, intended to reduce stigma.

"I think we invoke the term 'mental illness' a lot as a way to dismiss people that society doesn't find particularly valuable," she told me. "Or we use it as an excuse for an inexcusable action. In both cases, the clear message is that mentally ill people as a whole are 'other,' and therefore not worth our time or care."
And she's absolutely right. We see the term used to describe people involved in mass shootings, for example. The reality is that people with mental illness are only responsible for around 3-5% of violent crimes. They're actually significantly more likely to be victims of violent crimes than to take part in them.

"Until we can talk about mental illness as an illness that, like anything else, requires professional treatment and care, we will continue to think of mental illness as something to be kept a secret."

"The reality is that 1 in 4 Americans struggle with a diagnosable mental illness. 'Fear of a name only increases fear of the thing itself.' Until we can talk about mental illness as an illness that, like anything else, requires professional treatment and care, we will continue to think of mental illness as something to be kept a secret, and of mental healthcare as a non-priority," Jaffe said.

If you're like Wil Wheaton, Mara Wilson, Perez Hilton, or the tens of millions of others who live with mental illness, please remember that you're not alone. You are okay.

The Dash

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The Dash

November 9, 2012 at 6:44pm

The Dash by Linda Ellis, copyright 1996

I read of a man who stood to speak
At the funeral of a friend,
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
From beginning to the end.

He noted that first came her date of birth
And spoke the following with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
That she spent alive on earth. . .
And now only those who loved her
Know what that little line is worth.For it matters not how much we own;
The cars. . . the house. . .the cash.
What matters is how we live and love
And how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard. . .
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left.
That can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
To consider what's true and real,
And always try to understand
The way other people feel.
And be less quick to anger,
And show appreciation more,
And love the people in our lives
Like we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect,
And more often wear a smile. . .
Remembering that this special dash
Might only last a while.

So, when your eulogy's being read
With your life's actions to rehash. . .
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spent your dash?

Saturday, June 27, 2015

More Wedding Pictures


Extra Groomsman for Deborah


Proud Father


visiting cousin


Father of the bride with daughters

Friday, June 26, 2015

Spirit in the Sky

I love the beat of this song. When I need a perk up, I listen to this.

I asked my friend Lanny Townsend what she thought of the song and she did an amazing job in analyzing it. I asked for her permission to print it.

Very interesting topic. I looked at the lyrics and then did some research because the first thing I noticed was that it was written by a Jew, but makes reference to Jesus.

If there had been no reference to Jesus is the song, I would have dismissed it as totally misleading, in regards to the afterlife. After all, there is no salvation except through Jesus, but the song calls Jesus a friend and refers to Him as an advocate.

I read an article where Norman Greenbaum was interviewed. He was inspired by a song about a preacher to write this one, figuring that, as an artist, he could write about anything he wanted to, even if he had no experience of Christianity in his background.

At first, there was a little bit of flak from other Jews because he put Jesus in the song, but it soon died off. He got much more criticism from Christians, who protested the lyrics about him never having been a sinner. N.G. freely admits that he was mistaken about that. Wow! This song led him to an awareness that he is a sinner. That is the first step to salvation.

The guy is a rock and roller, but I think that he was given something from Heaven. It seems that because he was relaxed and open to writing Jesus into his song, in spite of being a Jew, that God over-ruled the negative things that came out of his soul, such as the heavy drug beat of the music, and inserted some heavenly truth. It was this man's only hit song and it gave him a lot to think about, in spite of being a simple song. It seems to me that God triggered a homing device within NG's soul, to help lead him to Jesus.

Please pray for him that the evil influences around him and within him will be overcome so that NG receives a clear message about his need to repent and receive his Messiah.

Notably, the song was written during the Jesus people movement, which was an era where God reached out to a rock and roll, drug dazed generation. This is a song that would appeal to them and slip some truth into the souls of young people and many in the music industry without them hardly being aware of it.

As for the lyrics about never being a sinner, if you are in Christ Jesus, He has you as if you never sinned, so in that sense, (if one is saved), the lyrics are true.

I like the song because of what my research told me about Norman Greenbaum and how I can see God working in his life to bring him to Jesus.

The Daisy's are Blossoming Again

I'm picking raspberries,grudgingly in the heat. The daisies are and soon in full blossom. This year, Deborah may not be wearing the daisies, but her fragrance is far more precious. We sense her all around us. Some things we haven't dealt with yet. Her suicide notes/letters. Should we burn them one of my girls asked? For now, I feel it unobtrusive in our filing cabinet. The fact that she felt that she had to do this, is bothersome to one of my girls in particular. I'm sure it is bothering all of us, if we want to be frank. It is such a silent killer; depression. How would we ever know, she was so deep in despair? I heard that there was another attempt at suicide two days ago on the skytrain. The trains were shut down for a time. I'm not sure if the person carried it out or not. The heat is almost intoxicating lately. Thirty degrees celcius. I don't feel like writing. Everyone seems to be grouchy. My mind is in a hundred places at once. even in the night. When will Deborah's bench be ready? What are her friends doing, will we have more answers in the future? Why is everybody silent? Is there more to know, or I am just going to be tortured with the lack of information for all of my days? Hopefully, it won't be such a long wait now. Jesus will make all things right, very soon.

September 23-Judgement Day

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Fade Into Darkness

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cqTjdyzEgqM

A musical cartoon illustration, just click on breaking news.

http://redmoonrapture.com/2015-feast-of-trumpets-solar-eclipse.html

Above is a website that has a countdown to the Feast of Trumpets on September 13, 2015 to the minute.

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Salt Floatation and Dry Salt Theraphy

Here is a photo of a dear friend and mom, who just happened to open a business in South Surrey, BC. It is the first of it's kind in Surrey. Please check out. She even has salt rooms which is therapeutic for asthma, and various skin conditions. Below is a photo of her and my dear Deborah when they went to Stanley Park together.

Monday, June 22, 2015

Suicide Barrier-Finally Being Installed- on Ironworkers Memorial

B.C. government plans suicide barriers for Ironworkers Memorial Bridge

By Kelly Sinoski, Vancouver Sun May 3, 2012

Wayne Leidenfrost/PNG

Photograph by: Wayne Leidenfrost , Vancouver Sun

The B.C. government plans to construct barriers and fencing on the Ironworkers Memorial Bridge by next summer in hopes of preventing suicide attempts on the crossing.
The move, which comes four years after the B.C. Coroner’s Service recommended barriers on five Metro Vancouver bridges, is in the design stage and will cost more than $10 million, said Douglas Drummond, assistant regional director, South Coast Region of the Ministry of Transportation.
He said the measure would complement six emergency phones installed on the bridge this week, all of which he hoped would “focus on intervention.” There are also six phones on the Lions Gate Bridge — two at either end and two in the middle — that have been in place since 2009.
Drummond said having the phones on the bridges will allow people to connect with a crisis centre in their time of need, while the barriers should stop them from climbing over the railing.
“In a lot of studies we’ve done, human connection is a huge part of this strategy,” he said.

In the past five years, 88 people have killed themselves by jumping off Metro Vancouver Bridges, according to statistics from the BC Coroner’s Service. Of those, 26 jumped from the Lions Gate Bridge and five from the Ironworkers Memorial.
Barriers aren’t being considered at this time for the Lions Gate because it’s a suspension bridge and is susceptible to weight and wind loading, Drummond added. The new Port Mann Bridge, he said, will have emergency phone boxes as well as the capacity to add railings if needed.
Ian Ross, executive director of the Crisis Centre in Vancouver, said the province’s decision to put barriers on the Ironworkers is a good step, even though it has been a long time coming.
“A lot of times jumping from a bridge is an impulsive act. If we can stop them once, nine out of 10 times we will save a life,” he said. “There’s very good evidence [showing] restricting the means of how a person can kill themselves saves lives.”
But, he noted: “You’re not going to save everybody.”
There have been 15 jumpers off Vancouver’s Granville Street Bridge during the past five years and five on the Burrard Street Bridge.
The Golden Ears Bridge, which is owned by TransLink, was built with higher barriers, while the Pattullo is slated for a rebuild that will also see the higher railings, spokesman Drew Snider said.
The railings on the Golden Ears Bridge run about five feet higher than the hand rail, and include vertical bars spaced 6.5 centimetres apart.
Ross said the Crisis Centre would like to see emergency phones added to all Lower Mainlands bridges. There are 500 suicide deaths in B.C each year.
ksinoski@vancouversun.com

The Best Comment on Youtube

Here it is, Enjoy. You will find this best comment under::

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OPPL0uBDx6I

Take a look at this: July 7 and September 23 should be on your radar!

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Just great. It's bad enough that we have an asteroid hitting us in sept. Planet X coming thru in Oct. a tsunami hitting the east coast wiping it out, the fed's poisoning us with chem trails, the illuminati getting ready to ship us all to FEMA camps, our lakes and rivers are either drying up or turning blood red, the birds are falling out of the sky, the animals and fish are dying or acting crazy, the economy and dollar is going to collapse, aliens are coming to enslave us, wal-marts becoming HQ's for Jade Helm/Marshall law, Prince William wants to RFID micro Chip everyone with the Mark of the beast. CERN is opening the portals to hell, so all the demons and fallen angels can come up and torment us, WWIII with Russia to nuke us, and now the Yellowstone super volcano is going to blow? I love Youtube, it’s a great way to get people’s attention, on what G-D is about to bring upon a sinful world. Maybe Noah could have warned more people in his time, if only he had the internet. ? Seriously thou people, it’s all true, all of the above. Time is short, the Lord is warning his people, how much more does he have to show you before you all repent, and start believing the truth. Very soon your time to be able to get close to G-D, and ask him for forgiveness, will be gone. The time of his grace will be over, and the Holy Spirit would have been taken from this world. Then the antichrist will reign supreme for 7 years, OMG!!! How will you find peace then, when only death and destruction will be the course of the day. ? Just some small things to think about. Hope everybody has a nice day. I know I will. You see folks, you have nothing to worry about, as long as you have on the full amour of G-D.

Dead Doctors Don't Lie

I went to the graveside today, after my specialist appointment. It is so arid, so bleak, so crushing. I did my ritual, washed the stone, emptied the old water, filled the vase with new water. Put roses and hydrangeas in the vase, pink and white. The small ceramic freedom angel was still present. Deborah's cousin put it there. It's little hands placed together, as if releasing a little dove from her hand. I complimented my surgeon and asked him if he was still in the business of making miracles. I believe him to be the best in the business, even in the world. I told my surgeon about her death. He says it is something that happens, and you don't see it coming. That is what is so frightening. I told him that Fraser Health is the worse place to go for treatment of mental illness. He told me he is aware of that. I left him with my blog information and the youtube video info,"Deborah Gordon Rest in Peace".

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2qtbqUHudeg

I told him that soon we shall all be caught up in the air, and he responded, " whatever sustains you". This man truly, was sympathetic, but don't you just hate it when people tell you that? Jesus' return is a living hope, and even a crutch if you want to call it that. The hope that the dead shall rise, is way more than just words. It is life. It is what Ravi Zaccharia said, about making dead folks alive. I die daily, so I do not do my will, but that of my heavenly Father's. In essence, I am dead to myself already. We have to be, in order to live, you see. I am emptied of myself. Sure, I would like to have an easier life, who wouldn't? Lately, I have been looking at people all around me. Most are aging to the point it challenges their movement, independence, sanity. Most are lonely, tired, frustrated. My mother is getting old and frail, and lives by herself across the globe, and she's only 20 years older than I. Everyone is waiting for surgeries, or doctor's appointments. Did I tell you that most doctors on average die around age 55 and we get professional advice from them?? What is the matter with us? I simply long for a new body, a new mind, a transformed mind, with a new assignment. I am studying more and more what Dr. Joel Wallach teaches. If you would like to share another doctor's info who you think is helpful, please let me know. I can post it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-v2NymC4NYc

The Movies-San Andreas

Soon the school year will be ending. It seems that everyone is in a rush. The roads are busy, the sirens are blaring, the parking lots are full. On the weekend there was a rowdy party next door. I put up with it till 2:30 in the morning, and then I called the police. They responded by waking me up at 4:18 am saying they can't hear anything. So much for police response, and hour and a half after the fact. I called them to complain, and find out their protocol. Are they really that silly, to call you to tell you, nothing? Should I have told them to not bother calling me about an update, at the moment I placed the call? I'm not trying to be disrespectful here, but what is their protocol? Do they give us an update even when they could not respond in a timely fashion? Is an update to be satisfactory, by saying they did nothing but patrol the area once the party finally finished? So my sleep was non existent that night. Sadly, it prohibited us from going to church the next morning. I have seen a posting from a friend that under no circumstances does he believe we should own guns, not even law abiding citizens. He says we are to call the police. Well, I wonder how timely they would be, if I needed them. Lately, with all the gang shootings, they have no time to defend us.

The sole oasis seems to be our home. We had a barbeque yesterday, on Father's day. With one daughter gone on her honeymoon, it was a very quiet day. The Steak and chicken kabobs were delicious, especially when you don't have to do the cooking. My husband enjoyed his portion, and we followed with a movie called the San Andreas. It was really my recommendation, but he turned down an invitation to see Jurrasic Park number who knows how many, by one of my girls. San Andreas is a bit of an apocalyptic film like 2012. It starts with the Hoover Dam being destroyed. Image result for san andreas movie images

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2EgdYhHAeA

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Lh2N7GZ9yA

I'm not sure if it was the wisest thing, to watch this film, but I recall many films, as well as the new American $50 bill that implies this disaster of the Dam breaking. These things, are meant to de sensitize us to prepare us.... in another words, so when the event actually occurs, we are not so surprised. Even the twin tower collapse as you know was foretold, by many things, including the cartoon called the Simpsons, as well as the $100 bill. Now this is not something I like to write about, but we are told to be vigilant and pray. So I'm just bringing this to your attention.

What are the odds of this happening? An older confirmation of this discovery.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jQN-39sedcc

One thing is for sure, the Rapture will be some occurrence! It will be better than any movie! It may even be reported as extra terrestrials snatching us up. Perhaps that is why the Pope is coming to Philadelphia in September, to tell everyone we have been "taken". I know I am sounding a little bit like Star Trek now, but truly, the things that are coming are better than any movie we've ever seen. We will be part of an incredible, incredible event that is eternal.