The choosen, incredible

We don’t fight for the ones who aren’t awake we fight for the ones they killed & ate,  there is no glory in fighting for those who look down on you for doing what God said for you to do. Imagine all those people out there that mock & hate on the very ones God chose to be His voice in the dark, imagine being unloved by them all while they wish you harm. Imagine learning so much over time & over 6 yrs later of intensive studying being told you know nothing when its them who didnt take the time to even check on what you claim is the true reality of this world. The suffering you endured the years of sleepless nights & the intense pain your heart mind & soul feel deep inside a scar that is a festering wound for all to notice because it cant be hidden. Add all that to the loss of business from a once great business you created all alone, the money struggles that ensues the lack of in life. The health issues evil causes you the mental torture that plays like a broken loop in your head .imagine coming all the way to earth to save the world from evil only to be treated as nothing by everyone around you feeling all alone 24/7 with the horrors of this realm. Its a daunting task it feels so icky & as you’re pouring your heart out the phone is trying to stop you from typing cause it doesn’t want you to say what you have to say. Its very real and happening in real time right now it doesn’t want me to say what I want to say because I am being watched and ways you couldn’t fathom . Fighting evil is not that hard compared to fighting the living souls each day the evil is nothing compared to that I gladly walk in the face of darkness for mankind and especially the children. There is no glory here only continual suffering secondly the pain inflicted upon the body by evil is a very real thing something you have no idea because you probably never battled darkness in the way that we have had to do it for so long I personally have been battling evil my whole life without ever saying a word I know it was why I was born I’ve always known that some of us understand why we arrived on earth from birth.  .I’m awake at this hour due to the suffering within my soul and my body I must say the pain in the soul out weighs the pain in the body but the pain in the body hurt in its own way my teeth assist on my back that I can’t reach it just appeared out of nowhere on Friday the lack of people around me who make it cut it out for me the lack of people who offer a hug and know that you’re struggling in every way only adds to the loneliness of being here. This is the greatest journey of suffering anyone could imagine for the position that we are in, now there are other types of suffering like what the children endured as they lost their lives I’m speaking from the point of view for those who come to stop it the fearless warrior who battle evil  it’s a very serious term of torture and every aspect that you can think of an empath feels the tortured souls of the children and men and women alike being awake hasn’t been a blessing although it is where I have eyes to see and ears to hear but yet all around me everyone seems deaf and blind.. life has never been kind to me not as a child not as an adult I always stand I don’t see failure I see a soul with such will and determination that even in the face of death my spirit stands things may knock me down but the only thing I know is to get back up. Lately I feel like I have not stood back up yet from the present things that knocked me down that bothers me in ways most wouldn’t understand. Which brings me back  to the lack of love I feel from anyone  asking myself why is it gotta be such a cold environment where only pain exist I never thought fighting for humanity would feel this way it is a brokenness that most will never ever understand . I am here on my pain I am here fighting for mankind even when you look down upon me just as Christ did for you . It reminds me of the movie split where only the broken can see .