Lush Donuts

I don't know about you., but I woke up late this morning. I slept in Deborah's bed in order to avoid my cold bedroom, and some noise in other areas of my home. I woke with her picture beside me. I just wrote to a friend what a rut I'm in, can't seem to generate any fun anymore for my family. I was in my pyjama all day yesterday, and I am struggling with the thought of what to do this sunny crips zero degree day. I know I should be going for a walk, but... I don't feel like it. My one daughter went to the mountains snowshoeing. One is reading, and the other is still sleeping. Is this what 2016 looks like? I finished preparing 2 bags of cranberries that I haven't made in time for the Christmas turkey roll. I washed the counters, and cupboards, but.. what next dye my hair? I dislike the mundane, the boring, the silence, the mundane. I'm not one to live on highs all the time, but I think I am now in a permanent low. Gears, like my hip joints, just don't want to be moving.. Having another birthday to endure this month, coming along, is not great either.  Maybe that is why I feel I need to dye my hair. I got my licence renewed, a simple parting of $75 dollars for an older picture of myself. I don't even like driving anymore.

Of course the constant nagging thought of us having to downsize is also wearing me out. I heard that home assessments are going up 10 percent or more, kind of wants to make you hold on, but a good way to say goodbye to adult children is simply to sell. One friend said, it would make sense if I bought in Manitoba or something afterwards,, can upgrade pretty quick to a nicer home there..However, if you plan on staying in the lower mainland, it is still going to be excruciatingly expensive..

Lush donuts are decorating my kitchen counter. Someone brought it as New Year's treats.. These are so sweet and glowing with calories, that you need sunglasses to approach them. One good thing is that Tiger, seems to have taken residence in my tenants suite for this cold winter of below zero weather. This will help us not to cover her at all hours of the night. I phoned a few friends today, just to say hello, but feeling it is just a must do instead of a deep longing to connect. I wish it was the latter, but when there is a hole.. a hole in one's heart, only God can remedy it.