Went to Costco

Here is yet another weekend. We managed to do some dry goods shopping at Cosco. I even got a new door mat, and some energy saver light bulbs for the front door. That is if there is going to be any electricity in the near future, once the days of darkness come about. I spent one of my daughter's rent money like a piece of cake in just over an hour. We have tissues and toilet paper for some time. All the spring items were in. Little girls summer dresses. The garden supply section was also opened. Beautiful hydrangeas were blossoming on the metal shelves; pink and blue. I wish I had bought one, as a sweet lady, is close to the end of her days, and the family will need some comforting soon.

I have found out that my mom is dehydrated in a Florida hospital bed with nobody to moisten her lips, or offer her water. She eats only very meagerly in the morning, and does not eat the rest of the day. I asked the nurse if I can call soon, to find out where they are transferring her to. I have not been able to talk with her, as the nurses do not pick up the phone where she is anymore. She apparently was taken in there with symptoms, but is sadly left and neglected. I can't help but reflect what a difficult mom she was, and how we all got the sense that she never loved us. Possibly it was not in her capacity to love for whatever reason. Not in an unconditional way that is often necessary.  Even so, I must pray for her salvation and eternity to be with God, and not separate from Him. She made some bad decisions in her life, and was full of unforgiveness. Ultimately, this behavior eats away at you, so best to have a childlike trusting heart that is believing that God is solely good, and is for us, and not against us. Since she choose to stay there, I am not able to help her anymore.. the distance is too great between us. My parents' home has been put on the market. I think it could have been staged better, but again, I'm not there. Here is a link to the house that my children frequented in their younger years while visiting grandparents.
https://mail.google.com/mail/u/0/#sent/153c92e14f3b7702
 It will be a memory only now.. My mom too will never enter or see her home again. Is this all there is to life, you may ask?
Ofcourse not. We know that Jesus has gone to prepare a place for us, so that where He is we may be also.. This will be no ordinary place.. This will be a Mansion.. and Frankly.,, I am very eager to go.. The beauty that we see around us here, does not compare to the beauty awaiting us over on the other side... Frankly, I'd rather be with Deborah also. This separation has weighed heavily on me. If you have seen my posts, then you know that the month of April is high rapture watch.. So I am watching.. and waiting for we know that we are in the season.. the fig tree generation.. (Matthew 24, ) the Holocaust Generation.. April 3 was the day Jesus died, and the dead rose.. So very possibly our exodus will be around the 4th of April.